confusion.

today i feel confused. lost.
i want to change my major.
im sick of not having a job.
im tempted to go home. get an apartment. and transfer to msum/ndsu ?
can’t believe i said that. but seriously.  jobs here suck.
i need to get that library job.  they have pracs in fargo. I can work at sunmart. or get an even  better job.
idk. mb it would be bad.  i need money. to stay independent from my parents.  and i’d have to stay here at least a year anyway.  i guess i’ll see.  make the best of it.  find yourself.
there are some things that i know i want.

i want to help people by making a difference in their life. by helping them with money, there business or helping them with whatever knowledge i posess.
I want to know something that few people know, i want to have prestige. I have an extremely good work ethic and want something that is very rewarding. yet i want it to be something that i enjoy. I don’t know exactly what i like.  i need to take, accounting, computer, economics classes. i really wanna be well-rounded tho i want to know everything.  i have so many weaknesses. i guess i can read in my spare time.
i want to stay on top of things and keep informed. right now i feel so blah.

im gonna bull shit this paper, pick accouting/financial analyst. seriously. hahha you can analyze good.  you’ll get a very good grade.  get it out of the way.  then focus on reading developmental psych to prepare for the paper.  stop overwhelming yourself. chill and find books. research new things that you want to learn.
decide who you want to vote for. dont’ be afraid to question things.  blahh.

1. i like to know whats going on.
2. I like to know what im talking about.
3. I like to keep myself healthy, but understanding nutrition and vitamins. seriously i want to take human anatomy.  so much to know!
4. i like to challenge myself.

you can handle this. breathe. find what you really like.

you can do it.  you really are brilliant.

go to sleep.

<3 hazel.  relax.